SOMEDAY.SOMEHOW.SOMEBODY.

..hey! i really miss bloggin so imma gonna update my blog about the things that happened during my summer vacation. quite a little bit slight long long stories. aahahahahah

as far as i remember.. march 26 nun (kung hindi aco nagkakamali) nang nalman namen na last day na ng pagpapasa ng requirememnts sa BSU.. balak ko kaseng lumipat due to some financial problems .. i swear! hapon na nun kung hindi aco nagkakamale.. ou nga hapon na nung malaman namen un kaya etoh ang lola muh nagmamadaleng magprepare kase naghihintay na yung prinsipe nya. ahahahahaha…

nagkita kame sa puregold nun. kase nakalimutan kung magdala ng ID. malay co buh nakalimutan co we! de sa makatuwid hindi kame nakapasok. saka isa poa wala acong grade ng finals nawala yung papel achuchu na inirelease ng CEU .. bleeeeeh! kaya ang ending? kumaen na lng kame. hayy wala na atang pag-asa sa march 29 na yung exam. wula centro na talaga toh!

kinagabihan binalita co kay nanay yung nangyare.. dahil nga pursigido xa na palipatin aco ade naghanap xa ng paraan. naisipan nyang kausapen si Kuya Mario,. isa xang PE teacer sa BSU at siguradong makakatulong xa samen. kaya kahit na gabing gabi na nun sumugod kame sa kanila ng bigla bigla ahaha. sugod mga kapatid! pero dahil nahanap na ni bebe yung grade nya. kame na lng. pinakiusap namen kung pwede ba acong magexam ng walang papel. i mean TRC na lng ofr permits. at pumayag naman., pupunta daw xa sa BSU tomo at ayun kakausapen yung mga andun.

kinabukasan. ready nako .. pero need co pang magpapicture ng 2×2 since walang rush sa topico bayan. nirefer nila co somewhere in crossing. mga 15 minutes pako dun. ang tagal nagkaproblema pa sila sa machine., awwww! nagpaxerox pako ng TRC. tapos nung tapos na. sumakay aco ng jeep mejo malayo pa kase yung sa school we.toinks! pero dahil malas aco, nagpagasolina pa yung jeep at nag-antay sa capitolio pero dahil mainet nun.. hinde aco bumaba.

pagkatapos ng 10 taon. nakadating din aco ng BSU. sa wakas! ahahahaha kala co aabutan nako ng lunch break neto we. tapos nagsubmit na nga kame ng requirements. may ni fill up-an chuchu nagbayad sa cashier na. kung sa bahay namen yung admission.. sa bulakan bulacan pa ata yung cashier. ampakalayo kulang na lang we magjeep kame para makadating dun. ahahhahahahaha corny co :]] pero after pagbabayad balik ulet sa admission. tapos .. tapos na. sa wakas!!!

after nun. de gumala eber pa kame nan bebe :]] waltermart andrama. ahaha annuod kame ng sine ahahaha. at tapos? kailangan co ba talagang ikwento toh?! ahahahaha. wag na lng … XD

may entrance exam kame. pero bat kelangan magreview? duuuh? ahahahaha. non sense may stock knowledge ata toh! at pagdating nan exam? out of stock na ahahaha.. march 29-araw ng exam. 8:00 ata ang exam sa natividad hall room 405? or 406? i cant remember. ahahaha.. maaga kameng dumateng. maaga buh tlga? habang naglalakad sa hall.. may babaeng nagabot samen ng papel. prayer something yun. binasa co. palagay co nga yun ung naging guide namen sa exam we. nakatago pa xa hanggang ngayon. yun ang lucky charm co.

umupo muna kame sa bench. habang hinahanap kung san talaga yung hagdan hahaha. me nagbebenta pa nga ng lapis dun pero. naman 3 ata lapis co nuh!! akyat 2nd floor.. akyat 3rd floor.. akyat 4th floor. aigooo. madame pal kameng kasabay na mag.exam..

nagpunta kagad kame sa room ng exam namen at may konti ng tao. ayus naman yung room. ayus ung mga upuan.. maayos kahit papaano yung ventilation in short.. mapapagtyagaan na den! ahahhaa yabang!! pagbungad namen may mga taong nagrereview. whew! aus kinabahan aco dun kase aco kahit konting preparation wula. ayos na yung naligo aco at nagbihis para dito sa exam nato! ahahaha

lumabas den kame kagad konti pa lng naman sila. tapos bumalek den kagad. ahahaha kulet pabalik balik tapos.. dumame na yung populasyon ng mga tao sa room kaya sa dulo na kame naupo.. makalipas ang ilang minuto ng katahimikan sa kanila at tawanan samen. me pumasok parang napadaan lng. pawisan at nakasando lng c kua. aakalaen mu ngang janitor na magbubura ng board! peace tayo!!! ahahaha joke lng yun. xa pla yung proctor namen.,

ayoko nang mashadong idetalye ang mga nanyare. pero.. bingay yung mga exam paper konting paliwanag at viola!! exam na. nakakatamad 200 items. minee-minee-miney-mo! duuuh. ayoko ngang mashadung mag.isip maiistress aco nuh! ang gusto co na lng talaga matapos na tong exam nato! ng magkaalaman na. duh! masasabe co na may mga tanong na confident na confident aco sa sagot co. merun naman na dinadaan sa hula. in short hindi co siniseryoso yung exam. ahaha natapos xa. natapos aco.. natapos kameng dalawa. mabilis kameng natapos.. atat na atat makifiesta. ahaha fiesta kase kila diane sa sta. maria..

nagpunta kameng stanley ville. issbay kase namen si nica kaya lng hindi xa pinayagan.,Citywalk .. fiesta .. at ayoko ng idetalye ang kwento .. this isn’t about us naman dba? haha. samen na lng yun ..bleeeeeh XD.

may 15 pa ang resulta ng exam. ampakatagal nuh? madame pang oras para kabahan. i swear! yebah!!!!! bleeeeeh.

at dumating ang araw ng resulta.. at as usual nakahiga lng aco sa kwarto ng magplano na magpunta dun. hahaha hindi nnman toh planado. sana maganda nnman ang klabasan netoh. nagSSS muna kame at after nun BSU na. kinakabahan tlga co.. sa di malaman na dahilan. kinakabahan kase may mga part na hula lng at hinde co sineryoso.. tapos nagmadale pako. merun nga dun pag nalagpasan co we.. d co na tinitingnan yung tanong. shade lng ng shade.. bahala na si batman. tapos hindi nakapost yung mga nakapasa sa bulletin.. nasa nursing building daw.. lakad lakad.. lakad. lakas ng kaba co sa dibdib. muntek ng matalon yung puso co sa lupa we. ahahaha nikakabahan tlga co sa totoo lng we!! tapos lakad lakad.. sa dulong room daw. lakad.. lakad.. pasok.. kaba,. kaba kaba.

hindi nako mapakali. ee me kausap pa yung dean kaya ee. hindi co talaga alam ang gagawen.. tapos turn co na.. charaaaaan! kaba.. kaba. oh no Lord. please! “transferee po aco, itatanong co lng po kung nakapasa po aco sa exam”, “pangalan?”, “Dela Cruz, Cherry May po”

Dela Cruz.. Dela Cruz.. Dela Cruz. naghanap si mam.. pababa ng list. ililpat na sana nya yung page ng masight co yung name co sa taas. as in sa pinakataas as in unang una. at since nagfocus aco sa name co hindi co napansin yung nakasulat sa gilid. at malay co bang by average yun. kaya tinuro co kay mam yung name “mam, eto po woh”, “ay, ikaw pala yung top 1.. yung kanina”

top 1? ha? anu daw yun???? tapos tiningnan co yung list. Dela Cruz, Cherry May T. 91..91 ang average co? top 1 aco? nag top 1 aco sa exam? OMG! this must be a joke. or a dream maybe. kumurot kurot aco sa kamay. awch! totoo.. lumingon pako sa likod. andun xa .. ay! totoo nato.. top 1 talaga co tapos yung top 2 sa exam 88 ang average. OMG! watta eff. tunay to? baka me nandaya sa test papers co. ee! hindi toh real!!! hinde! hinde! ayaw cong maniwala .. pero aray. totoo!!! ayy cheray hindi co toh inexpect. ok ok ok. inaasahan co na talagang papasa co. pero maging top 1? kahit sa panaginip d nasagi my dear. kaya SUPER SHOCK ang drama nan lola. may payakap yakap efek pa. hindiu makapaniwala sa nangyayare. pero totoo talaga we! im soooo PROUD of myself.

at dahil hindi nnman tungkol samen tong istorya nato. at pagud na pagud na yung kamay co kakatype. kase bawal huminto at sayang yung time.. titigel muna co wait. 2 minutes lng.. ok ok im back.ayun nga this isn’t about us. pero inabot kame ng 3 taon sa jollibee nun., ahahahaha 3 taon. pero basta matagal. at hindi co nnman idedetalye ang kwento na ito. walang clue! ahahahaha. masaya ang mga magulang co saken.. tito.. mga pinsan mga kapatid at proud cila sa tamad nilang kapatid.. pinsan o pamangkin., akalain nyo un? paeasy easy lng natop 1 pa? hahaha..

yan ang part 1 nang kwento co. swerte co ngayong year na toh! pero hinde ang totoo nyan. naging magandang inspirasyon lng yung boyfriend co! :]]

uyy!!! sobrang cheesy!!!!! pero real yun. iots sooo real. para nman sa knya lahat toh. at isa pa.. sa parents co. de hindi talaga sayang ang pera nila saken :]] uy.. yabang!!!

masaya co sa nangyayare sa life co. 2nd year nako. top 1 sa exam kahit hindi dun mag-aaral. 6 months na/pa lng kame ng boyfriend co. kaya contented nako. sira amn ang computer at nawalan ng cellphone. masaya pden ang lola nyo.

salamat sa mga taong. sumusuporta at naniniwala sa galing co! ayy grbe.. im soo maangas na here.

ohh. next time yung love story co naman ang abangan nyo :]] ahahaha.. sa susunod ulet na pag.OOL mga friends. gtg ..

*cheray signing off*

i thought it would be a great summer. come to think of it .. may legal bf aco .. pwede kameng magkita anytime–parang ganun,.

xempre. isa sa mga unforgettable summer co we yung sa Iba, Zambales nung sa muntik nakong malunod sa beach abot abot na trauma yung inabot co nun kaya hindi aco marunong magswim swim we..

tapos … may 18, 2009.

mahabang storya. ahahahaha hindi naman aco makasulat ng maganda dine sa comp shop kasi naman .. ang ingay :] next time nako magkekwento .. pero ang lungkot talaga …

as much as i try to change my ways, become moe mature in my thinking, learn patience, slow down enough to listen and be objective and not take things so personally, i still fail at times and say or d something that almost upsets the foundation of our love. i just want you to know that i am always sorry for that.

i also hope you realize that hose hasty words and careless acts are not indicative of my true feelings. they are just fleeting, mom,entary displeasure. they are unprocessed emotions, my immaturity speaing, my unguarded reactions. they are notthe whole picture, but rather just a little blot on the corner of the canvass of our relationship.

the truth is.. i love you all the time, even when things aren’t perfect. i say things that hurts sometimes because i’m hurt. i sometimes do things without thinking of the consequences of my actions. please understand that i never mean to hurt you i think sometimes part of the problem is that men and women act differently to situations and see things at times only from their own perspective. please forgve me when im not sensitive to your needs and feelings.

im not perfect and i dont want you to think that i’m makng excuses for my behavior when my actions seem insensitive and unloving. i will continue to work on trying to show my love to you in a more caring way so there is never any doubt in your heart and mind that I LOVE YOU. AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. NO MATER WHAT I SAY OR ACT.

–i love myou my YVES PHILIP BERNARDO NICDAO

:]]]

if kaya pang aucn, pilitin but if this is really wat both of u need.. then just be strong. magiging mahirap at masakit but hopefully all the pain will be worth it.

–i dunno kung kelan co talaga toh sinulat kase nakita co lng sya sa drafts ng blog co at naicipan na deng ipublish. baket kase? ewan co kung bakit co toh naiwan na hindi natatapos ang ganda nung mga unang lines we. bakit kaya? i dunno pero ala lng ipinublish co pa ren xa. hare share lang siguro.

Forget the times
he walked by,
Forget the times
he made you cry,
Forget the times
he spoke your name,
Remember now
your not the same.
Forget the times
he held your hand,
Forget the
sweet things if you can,
Forget the times
& Don’t pretend,
Remember now
he’s just your friend.

–aww. tagus tagusan. ewan co nga if we can be friends pa after all. waaah as if kaya co. right? ahaha :’[[

hey. aco talaga napakasinungaling co. i won’t update my profile daw. pero duuuh. anung ginawa co?? siguro kase. mahirap at masakit na yung status co we laging nasa in a relationship pero komplikado naman :’[[

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending.

–aww. a new wound for my heart to endure .. and it makes all my old wounds to ache all over again :’[[

If I could say what I want to say
I’d say I wanna blow you… away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say

–aww kaninang umaga pagkagising co. think that was 9 in da morning. aww nagpunta kagad aco ng tindahan .. at 11 na dpa kumakaen. mga 12 ng tanghale tanghale un nuh? inaya nakong kumaen ng mother dear co .. at etoh aco wulang nararamdaman na gutom kahit pinaghain na ng magiting at butihen kung ina ee dpa ren kumakaen. ade aun tapus na silang kumaen at aco ayun hindi man lang tinitingnan yung binigay saken na pagkaen. tapos ayan biglang dating ng pinsan kung makulet dati galit na galit aco dun 2 years old xa take note pero ang kulet kulet ayaw pasaway pero kanina, sabe nea saken “ate tse kain na” aww. pero wafakels :[[

tapus lumapet xa saken .. tapus tiningnan yung pagkaen kala co naman pate buh naman ung pagkaen co pinag-interesan. kaya bahala na xa. tapos bigla na lang lumabas sya ewan co nga kung bakit. tapos lumapet sa tatay nya sabe “chara .. chara .. chara” kala co naman hinahanap c ciarra kase nasa bahay pa. tapus bumalik ulet sya sa loob ng tindahan .. may dala dalang kutsara. kutsara pala yung hinihinge sa tatay nya.

napatingin aco sa plato na bigay ng nanay co, kase bakit naman nanghinge ng kutsara toh? makikikaen? .. yun paladalawang tinidor ang nakalagay sa pinggan co .. tapus kinuha nya yung isang tinidor at binigay sa tatay nya ulet. tapos binalikan nya aco ulet sa loob ng tindahan at sinabe “ate kaen na” 2 years old lang sya hindi co alam kung naiintidihan nya aco oh anu. baka kase akala nya kaya hindi aco kumakaen dangkase 2 ang tinidor co sa plato .. and hindi nya alam hindi lang tlga un ang rason.

kaya aco. alam muh naman madrama. napaiyak tuloy aco .. as in iyak .. kumaen na ren. napakaen tuloy aco ng wala sa oras .. kase naman yung pinsan co grabe. tapos kagabe pa habang umiiyak aco .. yung iyak aco ng iyak sa hagdan? tinabihan nya aco tapos hinahagod hagod yung likod co. trying to comfort me ganun., tinabihan nya talaga co sa hagdan nun .. hindi sya umalis hangga’t hindi aco tumatahan.

bute pa nga yung pinsan co na yun we. 2 years old lng sya pero parang naiintindihan nea nako. salamat sa mga kapamilya co :’[[ pagkatapos kase ng dramahan namen sa hagdan. yung malaki cong mata feeling co nawala bigla bigla. tapos tapos lahat sila parang naiiyak iyak na ren? yung habang iniiyakan co sila sila ren naiiyak. nadala buh naman masyado? haaaay. i guess ganun talaga. love na love talaga nila co woh. love na love co ren sila ubermax. at alam cong kahit anu pa man ang maging desisyon nya .. namen andyan paren sila para sakin. at patuloy an susubaybayan ang LOVE STORY CO :[[

sinusubukan co namang matulog ulet we. pero wala na talaga .. ni hindi man lng nea co mapatulog.

“may kilala acong isang girl na na in love sa isang guy at un un first love nea. pro nagmigrate ung guy sa ibang bansa ng hindi man lng nalalaman nung girl, since den hindi na sya naging seryoso pagdating sa mga relasyon. naglalaro lng sya kaya hindi rin sya sineseryoso ng mga guys. kaya kahit gusto na neang magseryoso wulang naniniwala sa kanya. kaya sya dn yung nasasaktan. hanggang sa may dumating na isang guy sa buhay nya. since wala ngang gustong maniwala na nasa isip ni girl ang magseryoso nagmahal sya ng tao na hindi pa nya namemeet. since hindi na nga sineseryoso akala nya yung effort nung guy enough na kaya contented na sya kahit hindi man lang gumagawa ng way yung guy para magkita sila. akala nya pag pinaparamdam sa kanya na mahal sya aus na kahit hindi sila magkita. but dumating yung time na kailangan nilang magbreak dahil sa madalas na awayan hindi makalimot si girl lage syang nasasaktan lalo na nung nalaman nya na may mahal na kagad si guy., pero may tumulong sa kanya. tumulong na iparealize sa kanya na yung mga promises saken ay hindi enough para mapatunayan na love na talaga yun. kung baket nga ba kase pinaniwala nya ung sarile nya na mahal talaga sya nung guy na yun. at since may tumulong nga sa kanya hindi rin nagtagal natutunan nyang kalimutan yung guy na un and nadiscover na nagkaroon din sya eventually ng unidentified feelings dun sa guy pero natatakot sya. natatakot sa pwedeng mangyare ayaw na nyang masaktan ulit kaya tinatago nya yung feelings na un tinatago nya pero hindi na ngayon ..”

sino namang makakapagsabe na kaya nyang sabihin yun diba? kahit sya hindi nya naisip na kakayanin nya un. pero that’s love we. genun siguro talaga :’[[

minsan kase talaga pag tadhana na .. wala na tayong magagawa dba? bakit kame pa kase we. magkaibang magkaiba naman yung pagkatao namen.. pananaw namen .. 2 north na magnet na hindi magkakasundo ..

sabe co. hinding hinding hindi nako magOOL never ever again. this is the last time na siguro to post here in my blog? i dunno. never naman acong naging sure sa sagot. never naging sure ,, never ever.

mukha cong trying hard dba? trying hard aco. pero i’ll say this to you. hindi co pa iuupdate yung account co. and all of you .. my blog readers know when will i ..

isang mahiwagang desisyon ang napag-isipan co matapos lahat ng nangyare. pag-isipan nyo? kanino ba aco susunod? sa sasabihin ng tatay co? sa iisipin ng nanay co? sa palagay ng mga kamag-anak namen? oh yung gusto co??! bakit cheray saan ba ang gusto mo? syempre alam na .. :’[

masaya co kase nafeel co yung presence ng mga pinsan co. ng mga tita co .. i know andyan sila for me. andyan sila to comfort me .. to tell everything will be ok .. though deep inside alam co namang hindi na. bute na lang andyan sila ..

9 years to go .. at marami pang pwedeng mangyare sa buhay co. basta gusto co at 25 may asawa nako .. and that’s final. period ..

kung gaano kabigat ang feeling co nung hindi kame nagpapansinan date .. yung gaano kahirap yung hindi co masabe yung nararamdaman co para sa kanya ,, yung saya kapag kasama co sya .. yung mga palihim at illegal na holding hands .. excitement .. lahat lahat .. lahat ng bigat nag-iipon ipon silang lahat saken ngayon. hindi co alam pero ambigat sa puso oh. hindi co na mabuhat .. hindi co na keme .. keme .. ou keme .. haaaaay.

“It feels like I’m stuck in the best fairytale in the world, or like I’m having the best dream that I could ever imagine, and I’m just so scared that I’m gonna wake up from the dream and maybe everything will just be all gone.”

–and so my dream is over. no more prince charming ..

it would took so long. but yes .. difficult isn’t impossible ..
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

opps. sorry .. i said move on .. ganito nman aco lage we .. right??

..parang kanina lang nangangarap tayong magkasamang lumaki at bumuo ng pamilya. tapos nalingon lang tapus na pala lahat. parang kanina lang masaya pa tayong magkayakap .. tapos bigla bigla na lang maghihiwalay. parang kanina lng ..

woops. sorry ulet. i promise to be better :’[[

when will i be?

my happy ending ..

but i guess i should start all over again.

this isn’t new na naman to me right??

marame ng gumawa saken neto. what’s new?

but this is different cheray.

you promise to love him forever dba?

sorry kay Lord. sabe co kase pag nagkaayos kame wala ng kasunod.

kahit kelan talaga sinungaling aco.

2 hours 34 mins of waiting …

waiting for nothing. hoping for nothing.

it makes me wonder if this is goodbye?

but according to his message hours ago .. that message will serve as a closure. so isn’t it obvious already?

aww. cherry .. bitter again ang again?!

lagot ka ke tatay :’[[

haaaynako. wala nnmang tatay mga anak co :’[[

awww juklang.

did you think that my smile could hide what’s on my mind?

…

(//_-) emo ka day?

Wish that I could move on
Can’t let go, it’s too strong
Just like that and then you’re gone
Is this how you wanted it to be?
Everything you had to say
Sent the tears right down my face
Now I’m trying to escape
The misery.

If you’re gonna hurt me
Then do it quickly
‘Coz I’m tired of cryin’
If you don’t wanna stick around
Then, baby forget about me.

Unashamed Of Showing My Affection
Just Spend Alittle Time With You
Stay Up Late On The Phone To You
I Can’t Believe What I Feel Inside

For The Very First Time
I’ve Got The Strangest Feeling
In My Mind
I’m Thinkin Of What To Do
For The Very First Time
Don’t Wanna Lose This Meaning
The Best Time I Have Is With You

–aww. shet it!

damn to this world. i dunno .. if im being too impatient or maybe because of little misunderstanding. i dunno. but damn it hurts a big part of my heart. yes it does. shet to this feeling.

damn i super labb sophia! shetpakness..

i dunno how i can handle this feeling of mine. HOW? HOW? HOW?

haaaay. people are like seasons sabe sa album ni sophia. haaay Lord. ewan co na po. ewan co na lang talaga., ewan co if kaya co pa. cheray kaya pba?

masaya co ou. masayang masaya co kapag kasama co xa. ee tapos nahihirapan ren pag nasasaktan,. oh ee panu na? haaaaaaay. hindi co talaga xa maintindahan. kahit anong gusto nyang mangyare. cool off? break up? time? space? without me? yes without me .. EWAN KO NA!!!!!!!!

naguguguguguguguguguugugulo ang utak co. nakukulta. shet na buhay toh woh. cheray die die die.
Naranasan mo na ba mawalan ng makakasama
Sa gitna ng daan, Hindi alam ang pupuntahan

Huwag magalala
hindi kita pababayaan
Sa iyong tabi
ako ay iyong mahahawakan

Naranasan mo na ba madapa at masugatan
Hawakan mo ako, Hinding hindi iiwan

–haaay. hindi nga pababayaan sasaktan naman. normal nga lng toh sa isang relasyon pero wag naman ganto. sobra sobra sobra sobra nang sakit we. sobrang sakit na woh. hindi co na nga alam ang gagawen co.  i dunno how to handle the pain. please …….

:’[[

been working this stuff from 10:00-12:30 it takes a lot of time. really .. but well i hope you do love the product of my hm? what can i call that? product of my work haha XD

bawat linya .. bawal tuldok .. lahat ng makikita muh dun. masasabe cong gawa co. lahat ng makikita muh run.

ewan co hindi co alam. and so what about the d*****?? waeber. no comment period.

My love so sweet kapag kasama ka
Anong ligaya ‘tong nadarama
My love so sweet pangako sa iyo
Ikaw lang ang iibigin ko

Habangbuhay nilalaman ng puso kong ito
Asahan mong ikaw ang “true love” ko
Piliting iwaglit ang lahat ng pagkukulang
Ikaw na ang buhay ko

Di ko akala na tayo’y magkatuluyan
Sa dami ng ating pinag-awayan
Hindi na sana tayo’y magpapansinan
Salamat tayo’y nagkaayusan…

Laying there with your arms around me I felt so comfortable and safe. My heart was beating a mile a minute having you so close to me. As you played with my hair and kissed me I couldn’t help but smile straight from my heart. I could see how much you cared from the look in your eyes It made me never want to let you go. To just stay wrapped in your arms forever. Where nothing else matters but you and me.

waaaah! miss my bebe :[[

It feels like I’m stuck in the best fairytale in the world, or like I’m having the best dream that I could ever imagine, and I’m just so scared that I’m gonna wake up from the dream and maybe everything will just be all gone.

-oo0oo-

Love? We think about it, sing about it, dream about it, lose sleep worrying about it. When we don’t have it, we search for it; when we discover it, we don’t know what to do with it; when we have it, we fear losing it. It is the constant source of pleasure and pain. Be we can’t predict which it will be from one moment to the next. It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, impossible to live without.

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‘I love you’ means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you when you’re in a bad mood or too tired to do things I want to do. It means loving you when you’re down, not just when you’re fun to be with. I love you means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, hoping you feel the same way for me.

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I love you because I know you’re always there… there to catch me when I fall… there to listen when I need you, there when I feel alone. I love you because you understand me… you know how I feel even when I can’t say it… you know I’m not as strong as I say and still you never let me know that I’m not fooling you. I love you because you make me believe, believe that I am not worthless… believe that I can be loved, am loved, and can love others. I love you because you know, you know I feel this way but can’t say it and still you wait… letting me take my time to come to terms with the fact that I love you… would give my life up to be with you… and above all… never hurt you… lie to you… or leave you. Now I hope you understand.

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When I look into his eyes, it’s like my whole world is flipped and everything is put into a new perspective. I can do things I never thought I could do I can say things to him that I thought I would never be able to say to anyone before. It’s like I just want to be with him forever, hold him in my arms, kiss him, and tell him how he’s changed me my life and my everything. You know you’re in love when you can say anything to the person and you know they won’t laugh at you. When you can see their face when you close your eyes. When you can still feel their arms around you holding you tight long after they are gone. When you can still taste their kiss after you have said goodbye. You can tell you’re in love when you miss them before they are gone. When their voice lingers in your ears. When their presence eases any pain. When their name sends chills down your spine. When they are the only thing you can think about. You know you are in love when you can see all their hopes and dreams and their soul when you look into their eyes.

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You are the single most important person in my life. One thing I have come to realize is that love is not always happiness. There are tears, anger, confusion, fears, but at the same time there are smiles, laughter, joys, and understanding. All of those things can happen. That’s why love is such an emotional thing. You can feel so many different emotions at the same time.

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I love how you hold me. I love how you tell me I’m beautiful. I love how you look at me funny when I say something stupid. I love how you make me happy. I love how you smile when I see you. I love how you laugh when I say something random, or stupid. I love the face you make when I snort when I laugh. I love how you ask me if I’m alright when I can’t stop laughing. I love how you make me feel. I love how you talk about music for hours. I love how you say sweet things to me. I love how you whisper in my ear when it’s really quiet. I love how you squeeze me so hard when I hug you. I love how I can talk to you for hours about anything, and you listen, and I listen. I love how we call each other as soon as we wake up. I love how you want to spend every day with me. I love how you squeeze my hand. I love how you rub my back, and kiss my neck. I love how you lay next to me, and tell me that everything’s perfect. I love how everything is perfect. I love how you see the person I really am. I love how you say we are perfect for each other. I love how you make me cry, but not because I’m upset or sad, or you hurt me, but because you made me the happiest person ever. I love how I wake up in the morning for you. I love how I anticipate seeing you. I love how you kiss me. I love how I look at the empty space in my bed, and wish you were filling it. I love how I get nervous when I see you, but feel more comfortable with you than I do with anyone else. I love how my parents love you. I love how you deal with my picky eating habits. I love how you worry about me, and take care of me. I love how you pay for me when we go places. I love how you insist everything will be alright, and make me feel at ease. I love how you keep me warm when I’m cold. I love how you give me weird looks at awkward moments. I love how you stop everything for me. I love how I’m important to you. I love how I make you happy. I love how you make me happy. I love how you make sure I stay in line. I love how I only want to be with you. I love how I only think about you. I love how I stop everything because I get distracted and have to call you. I love how you get jealous. I love how you are when you are with your family. I love being with your family. I love how I can see myself with you forever. I love how we talk about being together forever. I love how you think I have cute feet. I love how you tickle me. I love how you get mad when someone says something to upset me. I love everything about you.

a different summer indeed :]]

something kakaiba sa aking summer ngayon .. ahe XD wula wula wula .. nvm abah c belldandy ee nagbabalik  .. wakoko

hayayayayy .. last day sa school kung seswertehin .. next school andun pako pero kung kamalas malasan talagang kamalasan .. woho .. ee wula tlga babay sa aking centro escolar XD

monday .. march 23, 2009

last day of SY 2008-2009 akalain mung nakatapos aco ng 1st year ng walang kahirap hirap? walang kaprobleproblema?? wala nga ba? haha

nagsimula ang araw co sa paggising xempre :]] gumising aco ng 5 :00 ee panu 7 ee graduation namen. tentetenenenen tentenenenenen wakoko graduate nako woho. talaga nga naman woh akalaen mung NSTP lang ee gagraduate pa kame? harvesting the efforts daw. kung mababalik lang nila ang pera namen yung mga late namen kei gumamela. kung mababalik lng talaga nila. kaso ndi dba? hayayay.

pero waeber mga 7:30 dumating aco sa school me mga nakitang classmates sa shed kaya nagstay muna dun. hey ayoko ren namang magpunta kagad sa dome la akong kasama. hahaha emo!! de ayun after ilang minuto charaan! bumaba sa jeep si kamote larbbs

ayaw mapaste nung entry. amp! just read the whole entry na lang at ..

http://sweetiecherry1616.multiply.com/journal/item/12/my_summer_09