ang sakit sakit na :((

ang pakiramdam ko ngayon? wala.. parehas lang ng naramdaman ko kanina kahapon at matagal na matagal na panahon na :((

yung tipong malungkot lage..

lageng umiiyak.

naghahanap ng kausap..

kanina pako naghahanap ng kausap pero sino pa ba naman ang gising pa? wala na.. nagmumukha na nga lang akong desperada pero wala ee. ganun talaga :((

wala man lang akong mapagsabihan ng nararamdaman ko ngayon.. alam mo yun yung tipong tao na dapat kausap ko ngayon at inaayos ang lahat. ayun.. walang panahon saken
wala nga ba talaga?

hindi ko alam kung ano pa ba ang dapat kong maramdaman na dapat maging manhid na lang ba ako sa lahat lahat ng nangyare.. sa lahat lahat ng nasabe nya saken? hindi ko alam eh?

sa totoo lang syempre hindi ko alam kung anong kasunod netoh. hai :(((

Add comment October 23, 2009 myobsession

para sa mga tao na mahirap paniwalain :(

..friday morning.. medyo late na akong natulog nung gabi kaya medyo late na den akong nagising..

hindi pa nga ako magigising kung hindi ako ginising ng nanay ko.. “che, dito ka lng ba sa bahay? aales kame ng tatay mo ipapaunlock yung cellphone ni ciara, sasama ka ba? oh gusto mo sumama ka tas daan tayo kila YVES para ibigay yung chocolate nila?” ang sabi ng nanay ko..

napaisip ako ng konti. nagtanung kung may pagkain.. wala pa daw. pagkatapos.. saka sinabi na sasama.. “ibile nyo kong pagkain.. gutom nako” ang sabi ko..

sumama ko at umalis na kami ng bahay nagpakarga muna ng sasakyan si tatay saka kame nagpunta ng malolos..

 nung lalabas na kami, ”tara na che..” sabi nila ang save ko naman, ” tatay hindi ako bababa ditoh na lng ako sa sasakyan. yung pagkain ko” “oh lock mu na lng yung sasakyan. wag kan g magbubukas kahit kanino”

“oo kako”

andun ako naghihintay.. nasa taas yung picture ng cathedral.. nasa loob ako nung napicturan ko yan.. jan kase ako nakaupo at jan kame nakapark.. hintay hintay habang nakabukas ang aircon at radio.. andun lng aco sa loob.. nagtetext.. nagpapaliwanag at nagsasabe na hindi naman ako lumabas ng sasakyan na totoo naman.. totoo naman.. nung wala nakong makatext.. nagpakabusy na lng ako sa kakapicture ng sarile ko.. mapapansin nyo maganda yung picture hindi blard kase nakahinto naman talaga yung sasakyan habang nagpipicture aco e.. ibig sabihen kinuhanan ko yun habang mag-isa lang ako sa sasakyan.

agugulo ng buhok nuh? alam ko naman kaseng hindi ako bababa e. nung tinamad nakong magpicture.. natulog na lang ako.. ang tagal tagal naman kasi nilang dumating eh 1 hr daw yung pagpapaunloack hainako..

nung nagisig ako after 1 hour nakita ko may missed call. akala ko.. pero si tatay pala nag-aalala na saken hindi daw kase ko nagrereply sa mga text nila.. maya maya dumating si tatay.. bakit hindi ko daw sinasagot yung mga tawag nila? eh sabe ko natutulog aco.. ayun nga sabe nila e ang tagal daw kase at nalow batt pa yung cell ni ciara eee. after nun umales ulet si tatay..

maya maya bumalik na ulet sila.. 12:45 na sigurado naghihintay na yung dalawa dun sa labas.. hindi kase pwedeng iwan yung susi katulad dati kase ang dameng gamet na nakalabas ee. kaya sabe ko.. nanay wag na tayong dumaan muna kila yves kase mag-1 na kanina pa nag-aantay yung dalawa ako na  lang kako magbibigay at magkikita naman kame sa monday dahil nga sa swimming tapos umuwe na kame……

yun lng… hirap paniwalaan noh????

Add comment October 23, 2009 myobsession

ang sakit masaktan.. MASAKET?

The rain is pouring,
The tears are falling.
Wounds not healing,
Heart still bleeding.

Can’t keep of thinking,
Can’t stop of loving.
The pain is not fading,
Feels like I’m dying!

Add comment September 27, 2009 myobsession

it was you..

easier sadi than done

since the day you said goodbye

i cant help but cry..

cry until my tears run dry.

cry until there’s no more in my eye.

everyday i remember you

automatically in everything i do

i haven’t got a single clue

when and how can i forget you?

then i saw myself in the mirror

and relaized i should cry no more

to othes, i should open the door

and find what i am looking for.

i will not think of you again

for now, its already the end

im trying to my hear being broken

and now is the time to mend

i look again in the mirror

with my desperate heart,

have i done my part?

no, i just go back from th start..

thn i cry.. asking myself why.

you’re the only one,

you’re my only man

and hy its easier said than done???

–some people believe that you only fall inlove once..

some people believe you fall inlove over and over..

but there are those who believe that regardless of how many times we fall in love there will always be that one person who made the biggest impact in our lives. after our hearts had been broken time and time again, our minds and hearts always go back to that one person to the one we love the MOST :(((

–sana nga ganun ganun na lang yun. SANA BUKAS PAGKAGISING KO MAKAKALIMUTAN CO NA LAHAT LAHAT NG NANGYARE SATENG DALAWA. LAHAT LAHAT LAHAT :((

sana bukas pagkagising ko mawala lahat ng masasayang alaala co ng kasama ka :(( sana kung ganon lang yun kadale..

Add comment September 12, 2009 myobsession

more .. more .. more :)

4 Wives

There was a rich merchant who had 4 wives. He loved the 4th wife the most and adorned her with rich robes and treated her to delicacies. He took great care of her and gave her nothing but the best.

He also loved the 3rd wife very much. He’s very proud of her and always wanted to show off her to his friends. However, the merchant is always in great fear that she might run away with some other men.

He too, loved his 2nd wife. She is a very considerate person, always patient and in fact is the merchant’s confidante. Whenever the merchant faced some problems, he always turned to his 2nd wife and she would always help him out and tide him through difficult times.

Now, the merchant’s 1st wife is a very loyal partner and has made great contributions in maintaining his wealth and business as well as taking care of the household. However, the merchant did not love the first wife and although she loved him deeply, he hardly took notice of her.

One day, the merchant fell ill. Before long, he knew that he was going to die soon. He thought of his luxurious life and told himself, “Now I have 4 wives with me. But when I die, I’ll be alone. How lonely I’ll be!”

Thus, he asked the 4th wife, “I loved you most, endowed you with the finest clothing and showered great care over you. Now that I’m dying, will you follow me and keep me company?” “No way!” replied the 4th wife and she walked away without another word.

The answer cut like a sharp knife right into the merchant’s heart. The sad merchant then asked the 3rd wife, “I have loved you so much for all my life. Now that I’m dying, will you follow me and keep me company?” “No!” replied the 3rd wife. “Life is so good over here! I’m going to remarry when you die!” The merchant’s heart sank and turned cold.

He then asked the 2nd wife, “I always turned to you for help and you’ve always helped me out. Now I need your help again. When I die, will you follow me and keep me company?” “I’m sorry, I can’t help you out this time!” replied the 2nd wife. “At the very most, I can only send you to your grave.” The answer came like a bolt of thunder and the merchant was devastated.

Then a voice called out : “I’ll leave with you. I’ll follow you no matter where you go.” The merchant looked up and there was his first wife. She was so skinny, almost like she suffered from malnutrition. Greatly grieved, the merchant said, “I should have taken much better care of you while I could have !”

Actually, we all have 4 wives in our lives

a. The 4th wife is our body. No matter how much time and effort we lavish in making it look good, it’ll leave us when we die.

b. Our 3rd wife ? Our possessions, status and wealth. When we die, they all go to others.

c. The 2nd wife is our family and friends. No matter how close they had been there for us when we’re alive, the furthest they can stay by us is up to the grave.

d. The 1st wife is in fact our soul, often neglected in our pursuit of material, wealth and sensual pleasure.

Guess what? It is actually the only thing that follows us wherever we go. Perhaps it’s a good idea to cultivate and strengthen it now rather than to wait until we’re on our deathbed to lament.

The Wooden Bowl

A frail old man went to live with his son, daughter-in-law, and a four-year old grandson. The old man’s hands trembled, his eyesight was blurred, and his step faltered. The family ate together nightly at the dinner table. But the elderly grandfather’s shaky hands and failing sight made eating rather difficult. Peas rolled off his spoon onto the floor. When he grasped the glass often milk spilled on the tablecloth. The son and daughter-in-law became irritated with the mess. “We must do something about grandfather,” said the son. I’ve had enough of his spilled milk, noisy eating, and food on the floor. So the husband and wife set a small table in the corner. There, grandfather ate alone while the rest of the family enjoyed dinner at the dinner table. Since grandfather had broken a dish or two, his food was served in a wooden bowl. Sometimes when the family glanced in grandfather’s direction, he had a tear in his eye as he ate alone. Still, the only words the couple had for him were sharp admonitions when he dropped a fork or spilled food. The four-year-old watched it all in silence.

One evening before supper, the father noticed his son playing with wood scraps on the floor. He asked the child sweetly, “What are you making?” Just as sweetly, the boy responded, “Oh, I am making a little bowl for you and mama to eat your food from when I grow up.” The four-year-old smiled and went back to work. The words so struck the parents that they were speechless. Then tears started to stream down their cheeks. Though no word was spoken, both knew what must be done. That evening the husband took grandfather’s hand and gently led him back to the family table.

For the remainder of his days he ate every meal with the family. And for some reason, neither husband nor wife seemed to care any longer when a fork was dropped, milk spilled, or the tablecloth soiled. Children are remarkably perceptive. Their eyes ever observe, their ears ever listen, and their minds ever process the messages they absorb. If they see us patiently provide a happy home atmosphere for family members, they will imitate that attitude for the rest of their lives. The wise parent realizes that every day that building blocks are being laid for the child’s future.

Let us all be wise builders and role models. Take care of yourself, … and those you love, … today, and everyday!

-LOVE KO TOH GRABE:)

Mountain Story

“A son and his father were walking on the mountains.
Suddenly, his son falls, hurts himself and screams: “AAAhhhhhhhhhhh!!!”
To his surprise, he hears the voice repeating, somewhere in the mountain: “AAAhhhhhhhhhhh!!!”
Curious, he yells: “Who are you?”
He receives the answer: “Who are you?”
And then he screams to the mountain: “I admire you!”
The voice answers: “I admire you!”
Angered at the response, he screams: “Coward!”
He receives the answer: “Coward!”
He looks to his father and asks: “What’s going on?”
The father smiles and says: “My son, pay attention.”
Again the man screams: “You are a champion!”
The voice answers: “You are a champion!”
The boy is surprised, but does not understand.
Then the father explains: “People call this ECHO, but really this is LIFE.
It gives you back everything you say or do.
Our life is simply a reflection of our actions.
If you want more love in the world, create more love in your heart.
If you want more competence in your team, improve your competence.
This relationship applies to everything, in all aspects of life;
Life will give you back everything you have given to it.”

YOUR LIFE IS NOT A COINCIDENCE. IT’S A REFLECTION OF YOU!”

Add comment August 23, 2009 myobsession

short stories with lessons :)

Building your House

An elderly carpenter was ready to retire. He told his employer-contractor of his plans to leave the house-building business to live a more leisurely life with his wife and enjoy his extended family. He would miss the paycheck each week, but he wanted to retire. They could get by.

The contractor was sorry to see his good worker go & asked if he could build just one more house as a personal favor. The carpenter said yes, but over time it was easy to see that his heart was not in his work. He resorted to shoddy workmanship and used inferior materials. It was an unfortunate way to end a dedicated career.

When the carpenter finished his work, his employer came to inspect the house. Then he handed the front-door key to the carpenter and said, “This is your house… my gift to you.”

The carpenter was shocked!

What a shame! If he had only known he was building his own house, he would have done it all so differently.

So it is with us. We build our lives, a day at a time, often putting less than our best into the building. Then, with a shock, we realize we have to live in the house we have built. If we could do it over, we would do it much differently.

But, you cannot go back. You are the carpenter, and every day you hammer a nail, place a board, or erect a wall. Someone once said, “Life is a do-it-yourself project.” Your attitude, and the choices you make today, help build the “house” you will live in tomorrow. Therefore, Build wisely!

The Sand and Stone

A story tells that two friends were walking through the desert. During some point of the journey they had an argument, and one friend slapped the other one in the face. The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, wrote in the sand: “TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.”

They kept on walking until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath. The one, who had been slapped, got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him. After the friend recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on a stone: “TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE.”

The friend who had slapped and saved his best friend asked him, “After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now, you write on a stone, why?”

The other friend replied: “When someone hurts us, we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it.”

LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND, AND TO CARVE YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE

Two Frogs

A group of frogs were traveling through the woods, and two of them fell into a deep pit. When the other frogs saw how deep the pit was, they told the two frogs that they were as good as dead. The
two frogs ignored the comments and tried to jump up out of the pit
with all their might. The other frogs kept telling them to stop,
that they were as good as dead. Finally, one of the frogs took
heed to what the other frogs were saying and gave up. He fell down
and died.

The other frog continued to jump as hard as he could. Once again,
the crowd of frogs yelled at him to stop the pain and just die. He
jumped even harder and finally made it out. When he got out, the
other frogs said, “Did you not hear us?” The frog explained to
them that he was deaf. He thought they were encouraging him the
entire time.

This story teaches two lessons:

1. There is power of life and death in the tongue. An encouraging
word to someone who is down can lift them up and help them make it
through the day.

2. A destructive word to someone who is down can be what it takes
to kill them.

Be careful of what you say. Speak life to those who cross your
path. The power of words… it is sometimes hard to understand
that an encouraging word can go such a long way. Anyone can speak
words that tend to rob another of the spirit to continue in
difficult times. Special is the individual who will take the time
to encourage another.

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–aww. i love the story “two frogs” soo inspiring dba? nabasa co lang sila sa net co why not share it to others dba? be inspired den

2 comments August 23, 2009 myobsession

papercranes.

Once upon a time, there was once a guy who was very much in love with this girl. This romantic guy folded 1,000 pieces of papercranes as a gift to his girl. Although, at that time he was just a small executive in his company, his future doesn’t seemed too bright, they were very happy together. Until one day, his girl told him she was going to Paris and will never come back. She also told him that she cannot visualise any future for the both of them, so let’s go their own ways there and then… heartbroken, the guy agreed. When he regained his confidence, he worked hard day and night, slogging his body and mind just to make something out of himself. Finally with all these hardwork and with the help of friends, this guy had set up his own company… “You never fail until you stop trying.” he always told himself. “I must make it in life!” One rainy day, while this guy was driving, he saw an elderly couple sharing an umbrella in the rain walking to some destination. Even with the umbrella, they were still drenched. It didn’t take him long to realise those were his ex-girlfriend’s parents. With a heart in getting back at them, he drove slowly beside the couple, wanting them to spot him in his luxury sedan. He wanted them to know that he wasn’t the same anymore, he had his own company, car, condo, etc. He had made it in life! Before the guy can realise, the couple was walking towards a cemetary,and he got out of his car and followed them…and he saw his ex-girlfriend, a photograph of her smiling sweetly as ever at him from her tombstone… and he saw his precious papercranes in a bottle placed beside her tomb. Her parents saw him. He walked over and asked them why this had happened. They explained, she did not leave for France at all. She was stricken ill with cancer. In her heart, she had believed that he will make it someday, but she did not want her illness to be his obstacle … therefore she had chosen to leave him. She had wanted her parents to put his papercranes beside her, because, if the day comes when fate brings him to her again he can take some of those back with him. The guy just wept …the worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right besidethem but knowing you can’t have them and will never see them again.

The End

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–may mapost lng oh. hahaha

Add comment August 20, 2009 myobsession

loving in a fantasy world.

LOVING IN A FANTASY WORLD

By Jo D’ Mango

Many of us find it difficult to move on after a failed relationship because we pretend and make ourselves believe that isn’t really over. We still hope that somehow we can work things out and start over again. There is nothing wrong with loving a person but when this feeling traps us in a world beyond what is real, then we are bound to get hurt. Most of us live in our own fantasies because it is safer there. But, the more time we spend in this make-believe world, the more we drift away from reality and the more we are likely to be imprisoned by our own fears. Relationships are made and broken everyday. Those who lose it are always faced with a difficult task of moving on alone. What most of us refuse to understand is that we cannot move on without acceptance in our hearts. For as long as we still hold back what isn’t ours anymore, we cannot truly let go. Letting go means accepting the fact that we are alone now and what used to be “us” will just be “me” and it just has to be like that until we recover from our fall. Give yourself time to grieve. Like in any fresh wound, the pain will always be there. But after hurting comes healing and after healing comes a new hope to build our lives again. We can never be certain about relationships because not all of them are made to last our lifetime. But we have to constantly nurture it so it can grow and we can grow old with it. We should not mourn forever when someone we love leaves us. We fail in our relationships because God has a better plan for us. All we have to do is trust him. Always remember that it is only when we let go that we have the chance to get back what was taken away from us.

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Add comment August 20, 2009 myobsession

secrets of LOVE :)

The First Secret - The Power Of Thought

-Love begins with our thoughts. We become what we think about. Loving thoughts create loving experiences and loving relationships. Affirmations can change our beliefs and thoughts about others and ourselves. If we want to love someone, we need to consider their needs and desires. Thinking about your ideal partner will help you recognize her when you meet her.

The Second Secret - The Power Of Respect

-You cannot love anyone or anything unless you first respect them. The first person you need to respect is yourself. To begin to gain self-respect asks yourself, “What do I respect about myself?” To gain respect for others, even those you may dislike, ask yourself “What do I respect about them?”

The Third Secret - The Power Of Giving

-If you want to receive love, all you have to do is give it! The more love you give, the more you will receive. To love is to give of yourself freely and unconditionally. Practice random acts of kindness. Before committing to a relationship ask not what the other person will be able to give to you, but rather what will you be able to give them. The secret formula of a happy, lifelong, loving relationship is to always focus on what you can give instead of what you can take.

The Fourth Secret - The Power Of Friendship

-To find a true love, you must first find a true friend. Love does not consist of gazing into each other’s eyes, but rather looking outward together in the same direction. To love someone completely you must love them for who they are, not what they look like. Friendship is the soil xthrough which love’s seeds grow. If you want to bring love into a relationship, you must first bring friendship.

The Fifth Secret - The Power Of Touch

-Touch is one of the most powerful expressions of love, breaking down barriers and bonding relationships. Touch changes our physical and emotional states and makes us more receptive to love.

The Sixth Secret - The Power Of Letting Go

-If you love something, let it free. If it comes back to you it’s yours, if it doesn’t, it never was. Even in a loving relationship, people need their own space. If we want to learn to love, we must first learn to forgive and let go of past hurts and grievances. Love means letting go of our fears, prejudices, egos and conditions. “Today I let go of all my fears, the past

has no power over me - today is the beginning of a new life.”

The Seventh Secret - The Power Of Communication

-When we learn to communicate openly and honestly, life changes. To love someone is to communicate with them. Let the people you love know that you love them and appreciate them. Never be afraid to say those three magic words: “I Love you.” Never let an opportunity pass to praise someone. Always leave someone you love with a loving word - it could be the last time you see them. If you were about to die but could make telephone calls to the people you loved, who would you call, what would you say and..why are you waiting?

The Eighth Secret - The Power Of Commitment

-If you want to have love in abundance, you must be committed to it, and that commitment will be reflected in your thoughts and actions. Commitment is the true test of love. If you want to have loving relationships, you must be committed to loving relationships. When you are committed to someone or something, quitting is never an option. Commitment distinguishes a fragile relationship from a strong one.

The Ninth Secret - The Power Of Passion

-Passion ignites love and keeps it alive. Lasting passion does not come through physical attraction alone; it comes from deep commitment, enthusiasm, interest and excitement. Passion can be recreated by recreating past experiences when you felt passionate. Spontaneity and surprises produce passion. The essence of love and happiness are the same; all we need to do

is to live each day with passion.

The Tenth Secret - The Power Of Trust

-Trust is essential in all loving relationships. Without it one person becomes suspicious, anxious and fearful and the other person feels wrapped and emotionally suffocated. You cannot love someone completely unless you trust them completely. Act as if your relationship with the person you love will never end. One of the ways you can tell whether a person is right for you is to ask yourself, “Do I trust them completely and unreservedly?” If the answer is “no”, think carefully before making a commitment.

tralalala.

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Add comment August 20, 2009 myobsession

nagtataka lang AKO?!

nagtataka LANG AKO?!

BAKIT KAYA???

siguro nagtataka na den kayo kung baket ano?

AKO REN!

NAGTATAKA LANG AKO..

bakit sinasabe nila na HYPOTHALAMUS daw ang nagkokontrol sa emosyon lalong lalo na kung pag-ibig ang pag-uusapan?? kaya nga daw dapat “I LOVE YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HYPOTHALAMUS” at hinde “I LOVE YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART“

dahil ang puso lang daw ang nagppump ng dugo na isusupply sa buong katawan naten. pero may tanong ako. at sigurado ako na halos lahat ng tao ay naranasan na ito.

“BAKIT GANUN? KAPAG SINAKTAN KA NAMAN NG TAONG MAHAL MO, MAY KUNG ANO MANG BAGAY NA GUMUGUHIT SA PUSO MO EH? AS IN SA PUSO UNG SASAKIT AT ALAM KO NA HINDE HYPOTHALAMUS YUN!! ang tanong ko, ANO YUNG BAGAY NA YUN? AT BAKIT SA PUSO AT HINDI SA HYPOTHALAMUS??”

at bakit ko alam? at bakit ko tinatanong tong mga bagay na ito? kase naguguluhan talaga ako. alam mo yun kakaiba yung feeling eh yung parang feeling mo naging sketch pad yung PUSO mo? (DE NGAYON ALAM MO NA KUNG BAKIT SKETCH PAD?) haynako!! well anyways dun paden sa topic. bakit kaya nuh? kikirot na lang bigla yung puso mo. parang for a second or lower nagstop yung pagpump ng dugo sa puso mo at maapektuhan yung buong system ng katawan mo!!! babagal ang processing sa utak mo. gagana yung lacrimal gland mo at magtutulo ng luha. bigla bigla kana lang manghihina. WATTA STRESSOR!!!!!!!

yun lang naman gusto ko lang ibahagi yung naiisep ko. baka may taong makasagot sa tanong ko nato! BAKIT KAYA???

1 comment August 10, 2009 myobsession